Great Weekend!

Oh this has been my kind of weekend! I do love to exercise and be with my family and just stuff! Yesterday burnt over 600cals with the two dvd's of MishBridges and today I burnt over 600cals from my bike ride with 12wbters. I loved it. It isn't so much that I am burning calories, more that I feel great after excercise. I am so lucky to be able to do that. Eating has been ok, predominantly stuck to eating plan or at least to meals from the menu plan. Today I did have three crumpets which I have not indulged in since the before 12wbt in February. I didn't know they were only 83cals each so really the lunch was under 300cals which isn't bad, breaky would have been below that too and dinner just above. Add to that a banana and Jason is just getting me a skinnycow which is also not a lot of cals. So I should be good to be under 1200cals today and I know I was yesterday. You know what, no matter what the scales say THIS IS LIVING!

Nearing the end of week 2

Well I have had a pretty rough week this week. Work situation not so good and causing stress. So much red tape when you work for the government, you need to jump through hoops, you are not necessarily recognised for the work you do, you work your arse off for no recognition and disdain from the public. So much for being a public servant, it is difficult to say the least. So I got another job and now my bosses at my government job have gone in a spin and are taking me along for the ride. Needless to say this is stressful and it took its toll on my weigh in. Now that is not to say that I wasn't in control of my eating, I was but I let myself slip, I comfort ate, I used food as medicine, it was controlable and work wasn't. But controlable in a bad way, fed myself stupidly. I didn't review each day because how do you say 'today I ate two vegemite sandwich' that is above what I ate for the program. So that was my extra. Next day my extra was cake and buscuits and next day was WEIGH IN. Needless to say my 1.1kg gain put me in a spin and I cried and I was devastated. It has taken me a while to get my eating back in control, what I did do was up the exercise. Since exercise makes me feel better about myself, it helps.

Yesterday I ran/walked a little from Fortitude Valley to West End, along the river, through the botanical gardens and over the goodwill bridge. So very pretty. This was additional to the core work I had done before breakfast. Smashing 560cals for the day, good day for me. I ate poridge and banana, herbal teas, almonds & mandarin for lunch, tuna meal for dinner and some cake my children had made yesterday. All in all a good day and yes I know I shouldn't eat cake but what do you say to your little kids when they make one for you? YOu say, thank you,just a small piece and their small is adorably large. But I am a mother first and I dont mind.

Today I weighed myself and I have finally lost my 1.1kg and an extra .1 as well. So I am back on track. I may even have a good weight loss this week. This morning I am enjoying my protein shake with fruit for breaky. It is delicious with berries and banana and low fat soy milk. I do enjoy a protein shake. And I have a good workout planned, I am trying out one of my new MishBridges DVDs and then I shall take the dog for a walk/run. I intend to kill at least 500cals before I stop. I have another run planned for tonight, shorter, I shall run beside my daughter who wants to bike ride, it makes me sprint faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaast!

tomorrow is the 12wbt group bike ride Sandgate to Shorncliffe. No idea really who will come but I am definitely going to enjoy riding by the water front. I dont have to kill records I just have to move.

12wbt and Michelle Bridges has changed my life! I pull myself together quicker, I exercise more, I am so much happier. Now if work would fall into line.

Then there was no runs because of the damn rain! Better for Sundays ride please.

Day 7

First week done and dusted ~ 11 weeks left to enjoy!

Good exercise day with run/ride/swim and a total of 1580cals burned. There was a break between the ride and swim for breaky but still a good day and nicely burned cals.

Eating day was pretty good too:
breaky ~ fruit and protein shake - 260cals
lunch ~ fish and salad with a diet coke and 2 prawn cutlets from Morgans(yum) - 280cals
at ~ burbon and diet coke - 80cals
Dinner ~ roast chicken and salad - 350cals

Total intake 970
Total burned 1580
net cals -610!

And while that was good it did not equate on the scales! I have a feeling this will not be a good weigh in.

Day 6

This was the day I should have got up and run but couldn't! I hadn't slept, my body hurt, I had an extra child who was sad and there was stuff to do. Jason got in late and had to go to bed rather than ride a bike with me because he had to be up in two hours to go out to lunch with his family. All in all, I felt like shit, no exercise, worried about this whole job situation (and the more I think about that the more I realised I made the right decision ~ of course time will tell but I really feel this was God shutting one door and opening another). Anway too much food and not not enough loving myself:

exercise 0!
breaky ~ fruit and protien shake 260cals
lunch ~ salmon and salad (Lone Star) with burbon and coke @580cals
pm ~ birthday cake and bit of chocolate @200cals
Dinner ~ steak and mustard mushroom sauce 300cals

total consumed 1340 cals or there abouts ~ too many anyway

The cake was a peace offering and there are just some things you have to do/eat despite the diet. Truth to tell, it is cultural if we like it or not. Food can be a peace offering, a way to connect and sometimes to refuse is so rude it is best just to work it off later and enjoy the moment when you consume the empty calories knowing you are one step closer to mending a rift or making someone elses day. Whatever, I knew it had to be eaten so I tired to eat a small peice.

Anyway Sunday is bound to be a better day??????

Day 5 - Round 3

OMG, I am tired, I am stressed but it only cost me one tiny melting moment today and not chocolate on chocolate which is better.

Training
1st run 350cals
2nd run 190cals
3rd run 100cals

breaky: porridge, banana & herbal tea ~ 213cals
am: herbal tea ~ 3 cals
lunch: steak and salad at the pub with mushy sauce on the side ~ 337 cals
pm: mini melting moment and pepsi max ~ 106cals
dinner: pizza (homemade of course)~ 200 cals
supper: bourban and coke ~ 80cals

total cals consumed 939 but possibly having another 80cals in a minute
less burnt cals 640
net cal intake so far 299 (possibly 379, well more than likely really)

good day, better than others. I still have to work out what I am doing in the morning, probably considering how many people are in the home I will go for a jog. NOt an overly long one because some of those people are sad kids who miss their mum and I am not their mum. My kids dont miss me when I run, they worry about when I am getting back! ahahhahaha, I am a horrible mummy sometimes but I love them! Got the best kids ever.

Day 4 - round 3

Aghhh, another day closer to my goals! But another headache and a long road to freedom. Stress is driving me to chocolate and icecream and I KNOW that is self medicating with food but seriously it still works kind of. Oh whatever, I just want to feel good again. Anyway, no excuses, I need to be under control.

Exercise: toning and a run ~ 500cals
Breaky: eggs and tomato ~ 124cals
AM: herbal tea ~ 3 cals
lunch: chicken salad at Chipmunks with mustard mayonaise on the side & herbal tea ~ @470cals
afternoon tea: chocolate, chocolate icecream and more calories than I can count, lets say about 900cals
dinner: cauliflower soup (Angela is a genius) 147cals

Total cals consumed 1644cals
Total burned 500cals
Net cals 1144 cals

It is no way to loose weight but at least I should remain steady! I hope. Anyway, tomorrow, with any luck will be a better day. I need to revisit my excuses, did I say stress??? did i? I doubt it. I haven't been stressed in a while so it really wasn't something I was thinking about. And for a stress management strategy that does not involve chocolate? hmmmmm, I do have the deep breathing, the meditation, the primal scream but these are hard to do when you are looking after kids or at work. Lets think about it shall we? Or maybe we should just call it as we see it i.e. stress and not an excuse to blow our hard work.

Why am I using the bloody royal we? I so need sleep.

Day 3 ~ round 3

hmmmmmmm, somewhat of a stressful day and I would like to say that I had a good excuse for the chocolate but stress isn't a good excuse and it isn't a reason to blow my hard work to the wind. I did enjoy it though, I love dark chocolate and mint in whatever form it comes. I suppose sharing it with the children is a step up from gorging in private. I even insisted they eat more and more just so it was gone and not tempting me. In some ways this is an improvement. Of course after they went to bed I indulged AGAIN in a skinnycow double choclate mousse thing. Oh now that was good too. But still it did blow the healthy eating plan!

My weigh in was good ~ 1.7kg gone. I couldn't quite believe it myself. I'm not quite sure how I did that since I had icecream and chocolate cake. Not together but still they were eaten. Thank goodness for the most part my willpower remains in tact. Shame about the darn stressful days.

Breaky~ porridge, berries: 168cals
AM~ protien drink: 150cals
lunch~ tuna and crakers and two strawberries: 230cals
dinner~ Lentil spagetti (I was duped though because the kids told me that was on the dinner plan and it WASN"T ~ I have got to watch those kids, first time they told me a fib to get the yummy dinner! I realised there was something wrong when I went to the cupboard and no pasta.) and diet coke: 470cals
Supper chocolate - probably 1000s of calories!

Exercise 400cals I had a fall and hurt my knee and ankle. There was a time I would have given up but I kept going, limping, walking, running it was still moving. JFDI I thought, what is the worst that could happen. The bruise on my knee bites today though.

If I had been good that would be 1018 in and 400 burn giving a net total of 618 but we know the chocolate made that not so good. Lets leave it at that. Back on the program day 4.